VANESSA!

LINA ELEORA TAY'S 20TH MARK ON EARTH

2012-02-10T00:42:00.002+08:00

The Lord bless this adorable girl who has been nothing but fun and joy <3

It's TOO HARD to find a person like her. The only problems in life are prolly just... projects & other assignment, what to eat, what to wear, how to go where, who to hang out with, what to buy......

You can honestly be envious of the kinda life she's having now.

Today's her birthday, so sing her a birthday song!
L-I-N-A-B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y SONG!
L-I-N-A-B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y SONG!
L-I-N-A-B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y SONG!
we are singing the Lina Birthday song! Hey!

Hairpee Birthdayum, baby! LOVE CHU TO THE FULLEST

You are pieces of everything

2012-02-09T20:59:00.002+08:00

Sometimes.. I think I have the lamest boyfriend.
Then, sometimes he is so cute like you would never imagine that from him.

When I liked him, it was because he was funny and there was chemistry/connection/anything telepathic etc.

Then found out he is muscular/strong then whoaaa BONUS.
Then UH-HUH HE CAN PLAY LE GUITAR.. chaching BONUS #2.
Then like OKAY last time a fierce/scary person, how intense - BONUS #3.

then toinggggg after one year a baby panda was born out of him. suddenly, i'm at a daycare centre.
if not like at an asylum made for people who cannot stop making comments that shows they cannot come to sense that they are humans (???)

ANYHOO, YOU GET MY POINT.

he is the best. my favorite friend, best friend, bodyguard, girly pal, gossipy old woman, laughing stock..
Love him like never before.

Stoked all day & all night

2012-02-09T20:38:00.002+08:00

TOMORROW IS THE LAST EXAM PAPER THAT I AM EVER GONNA DO IN NYP.

maybe tests for GSMs for the 3rd year...
BUT MAJOR PAPERS ARE OVER.

i think the worst paper was BMMP cos.... everything i studied (ACCORDING TO CHONG'S GUIDE) didn't really come out. What kinda lecturer gives you "hints" that are just gonna make you fail.

Nope, I won't fail in Jesus' name!
HARHAR.

s'excited for events/plans coming soon! I was literally bursting in flames of blithe during dinner as my parents asked me to keep my 25th Feb free (Arrow :\)cos we are going to JB.
I was telling them about other plans and you could prolly see me glowing via satellite.

I NEED BRACES

2012-02-08T17:05:00.002+08:00

is it me orrrrrr

ugh my 2 front teeth are annoying me.

BLEARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Do you ever feel?

2012-02-07T20:17:00.002+08:00

Like memes express your feelings way better than you can ever do so?

Good point

2012-02-07T20:02:00.006+08:00

If you realized, you read blogs and people are talking about their lives and all of the sudden it strikes you that they are struggling with their own image and character development. Their rants and "deep" sense of unending trail of thoughts inspires the next episode to True Life.

I think I would never have enough of myself brooding over the fact that life is quite unfair and my parents prolly suck balls sometimes. & other people can never stop throwing rocks at you and some will always make you a smoothie.

Yes, I am most likely having issues with my life and well.. everyone does in a way or so.

Thing is, I get sick and tired of negativity because I thought I would NEVER touch on it. I honestly believed that I would just whine as per the norm, but life would just get better eventually.

Now? Nooooooo, everyday is a challenge that is sometimes almost unnecessary to go through.

The agony can be so unreasonable. and you're all like

but then you realize there is almost nil that you can do about it because someone of authority comes along and play evil witch and you think

You pick up the slack and your eyes secretly roll to the back of your head, so much so you look like you are having a seizure.

Time's up.
Take that phone, type on that tiny squares. You go let it all out on the social media platforms.

THE VICIOUS CYCLE, PEOPLE.

You will face the same every week.

Then people like me go to church and we make a pact with God that everything will be left in His hands for He who promises is faithful...
But in my head I am planning a war.

I came to Complain

2012-02-06T23:24:00.004+08:00

just click to view it properly.

I can't imagine how helpful it is, Sally Wu.

Standard Deviation = Square Root of Variance?

HOW ABOUT WHAT ON EARTH IS THE "VARIANCE" YOU HAVE THEREFORE MENTIONED?

by far the WORST teacher I've ever had.. despite her gentleness, her teaching skills totals to a square root of zero.

Too soon

2012-02-06T20:02:00.002+08:00

If there's anythnig you can count on, that is time flying right pass your eyes.
Which I am glad for this week. Tomorrow's the 2nd paper which leaves me with 3 more and then partaye on Saturday!

Speaking of parties, I haven't planned for V'day. So Lee & D had better be grateful cos I decided their birthdays were more important..

Fact is I didn't decide anything. It just slipped my mind. I thought V'day was for weeks to come!

Anyhoo, I was recalling how pissed I was with my mum selfishness yesterday.
BUT, she redeemed herself when we were leaving the food court and a man rushed down the escalator and squeezed pass us. She said, "Wanna go faster then jump down?"

HAHA, I couldn't stop laughing at that moment. Funniest thing she has ever said; everything else is invalid.

What to Do

2012-02-05T12:58:00.000+08:00

Last year at this time, we were going places of nature.
I miss our nature walks.

Night out

2012-02-05T12:37:00.002+08:00

I miss "working" with them. Few of the most efficient people ♥
This is only part of the group.

Ruth is leaving and we gathered yesterday to HAVE FUN - Dinner, ice cream & drinks.
The Sex on the Beach made me feel like my head was gonna burst. This is the first time I've felt like my body was burning way too much. & it wasn't even much of a drink. This must be the lack of nutritious food for the past week.

Anyhoo, who knew how wild they could be? Talked about clubbing?!

Frankly, I thought they would go for a cup of coffee. Looks like we've found another group of fun people. I wish I was groggy and stoned.

AND I GOT TO SEE PUNKS HAHAHA I CAN TELL HALF OF THEM DROPPED OUTTA SCHOOL AND DECIDED TO WEAR LEATHER JACKETS FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES.

& the skinhead whatsoever ahaha i wanted to say "you don't look good bald". guess i would have earned a punch.
BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, there were policemen everywhere "looking after" them.

just to be lame & cheesy, but i felt safe walking with N♥
HAHA my personal bodyguard.

OH, MY GOODNESS

2012-02-03T23:38:00.002+08:00

S'EXCTIED FOR POST-EXAMS ACTIVITIES!!!

Planning a whole bunch of "events".

Loads to do! But loads of which I'd rather do then the loads from school projects.
I'd rather make the effort for all of these PEA!

I still need a job. Jesus, look out for me! Yay!

Cannot wait! Just one more week!

Inside War

2012-02-03T11:29:00.000+08:00

The burning heart in the crepuscule,
The tingling drive to surpass control.

In the looming is an end of fight.
Truth be known, the riddance of lucent sight.
Be at what end should feelings lay?

Spears soar, swords lounged.
Left of within, the flow of crimson.

The Worse of Love

2012-02-03T11:28:00.000+08:00

i curl into a ball at the corner of the room. in my trance, i whisper the very feeling i developed.. of how much i love you, unconditionally. light shines upon me, revealing my brown eyes into the day. behind the glittery effect cast upon my upper face, there sits a vulnerable being, crouched in a defensive stance, awaiting the next round of daggers possibly looming.

nobody knows of the weakling. she’s all by herself, searching for answers, trying out different ways to ameliorate her situation. nothing assuaged her situation. upon the movement of her lips, sedition slipped. she repudiated the fact that things were going differently, things of which inflicted hurt on her, proving inimical to her soulful existence.

she used to be scrupulous with her fervency. she was always reticent. then came a point in her life that nothing was tractable anymore. she realized life could be made tortuous, elicitng the worse in people. she realized not everyone was all that trustworthy. there & then, pieces of her strong phase started to fall apart. she tried so hard to catch those pieces - the person she relied on for that duty was nowhere in sight.

- Wrote this on my tumblr. Dated back to Oct 2010.

People that make me Happy

2012-02-02T23:51:00.004+08:00

Jesus

N Zach

Le Coolkidzxzx

Char

Fil

Mas

Rock Kidz Peeps (more than these, of course)

& NYPCG but I don't really have the proper picture. So just refer to le coolkidzxzx for now HAHA

P.S. These are in NO order.

Why, oh, Why

2012-02-02T23:33:00.002+08:00

I know - blame myself for not listening/attending lectures.

But for one, I can skip a whole bunch of lectures for other modules and still be able to study for it and understand.

This? Not to complain - yes, SallyWu is nice - but her notes are... all over the place. Reminds me of who? A girl named Nurul who copies a whole bunch of stuff off the Net and pride it as her work.

I don't understand Wu's lectures AT ALL. It's all over the place. You would expect a woman like her who has travelled around the world to be more.. organized or something. Not only can she NOT teach, but her notes are crap. I could have attended her class and NOT understand anything at all given that she looks like she was speaking for a funeral.

So what difference does it make? Attending or not...? It;s like asking me to sit in a room without the light on and asking me to get out of it and move to the jungle in the night.

Fine, I'm not cut out for these stuff anyway. Nil interest. I can't catch the whole scene like others. Firstly, because of my wn character which I'm dying to change but progress remains stationary. Pity that I can be more "forgiving" this sem, but everything regarding calculations remain the same.

Jesus, help me. You know this is my weakness. I boast in my weakness only because of You.

Actually... how is this boasting. I'm only complaining. Ugh.

The idea of you gone

2011-12-27T17:27:00.002+08:00

forever frightens me.

I've always wanted you close. Even if you are 45 minutes away from me, it's better than knowing you are in anolther country - with limitations to our communication.

But every now and then, I'm thankful for the distance as it teaches us how to cherish.

That is something I know that I will never get any where else.

Anyway, Christmas is over and the new year is looming.
This Christmas showed me who I really can count on and be with at ease. Where I know I am surrounded with sincere people.

Whether is it at the RK gathering last Friday or that short time spent with CG on Christmas morning, either way puts a smile on my face.
& what warms my heart? You being everywhere that I am.

Like the completion of a puzzle.